The very next day, I was at Sid's place again. He introduced us for the first time. As the last two times our meetings was kind of ignored. Elder was shaumya and younger was shreya. Both were equally cute and beautiful.
"Hey guys, why don't we four go for a lunch some day? What say...?" I said after talking for a while. It was too early to ask something like this but you know, I was a fool then. More than a fool, I was desperate then.
Sid pinched me hard when I said this.
"We can't go out." I heard this. Still that hard pinch was hurting me. It was saumya, the elder one.
"Why?" I couldn't held back.
"We have exams ahead. And we have to study for that." she said again. She had a point.
"Yes. Yes. They have exams ahead. And they have to study Rohan. We will go some other time." Sid said as he have got the point to step back. He looked at me and smiled as he have won the bet against me.
"No problem. We will go some other time." I said.
We talked for few more minutes and I got out of the place as they continued the study.
I waited for one week. And throughout the week I thought about those two girls, Saumya and Shreya. Yes, I thought about both of them. Though, I liked the elder one more but still I thought about both. I was a little confused.
I kept asking Sid about exams and he told me that it's still going on.
"Why are you behaving like a despo Rohan?" one day he asked when we were sitting in the college canteen. Rajeeve too was with us.
"Desperate for what? Getting laid? Like really Rohan?" Rajeeve said and I hit him on his shoulder.
"He wants to meet my students over lunch so that he can fall in love with her. True love." Sid said and Rajeeve looked at me in a very serious node. Like he couldn't believe what Sid said. And then suddenly started laughing like he has heard the biggest joke of the millennium.
I felt bad. I felt embarrassed. I was serious and they were making fun of my emotions. I didn't say anything. And walked away from them. It hurt me. Was I really behaving like a despo? I just wanted love in my life. And I didn't want anything wrong. Then why were they making fun of me? Just because I have been a flirt few weeks ago? Just because I have had many dates with different girls in my past? Many questions were going through my mind. What was wrong if I liked that girl? What was wrong if I wanted to go out with her and spend time with her and understand her? I couldn't understand it. It all looked too complicated.
I looked down to distract my mind. There were buses and taxis and cars were running without caring about my situation. The crowed was doing their own work without bothering about me. Few people were talking but I was not the center of their conversation. I was almost no one. I was not such important to be the attraction. Why would they care then? Even my friends were not caring about me? The crowed was no one to me. May be I was not able to show up my emotions in a right manner. May be I had a bad image. May be I was behaving desperately. But they were my friends. And they couldn't understand me.
I just wanted love to fill my life. I just wanted to be loved. I just wanted to love some one beyond the limits. I just wanted to be loved beyond the limits. I didn't want to play with hearts. I just wanted love. Pure love.
(Next post, Next day)
"Hey guys, why don't we four go for a lunch some day? What say...?" I said after talking for a while. It was too early to ask something like this but you know, I was a fool then. More than a fool, I was desperate then.
Sid pinched me hard when I said this.
"We can't go out." I heard this. Still that hard pinch was hurting me. It was saumya, the elder one.
"Why?" I couldn't held back.
"We have exams ahead. And we have to study for that." she said again. She had a point.
"Yes. Yes. They have exams ahead. And they have to study Rohan. We will go some other time." Sid said as he have got the point to step back. He looked at me and smiled as he have won the bet against me.
"No problem. We will go some other time." I said.
We talked for few more minutes and I got out of the place as they continued the study.
I waited for one week. And throughout the week I thought about those two girls, Saumya and Shreya. Yes, I thought about both of them. Though, I liked the elder one more but still I thought about both. I was a little confused.
I kept asking Sid about exams and he told me that it's still going on.
"Why are you behaving like a despo Rohan?" one day he asked when we were sitting in the college canteen. Rajeeve too was with us.
"Desperate for what? Getting laid? Like really Rohan?" Rajeeve said and I hit him on his shoulder.
"He wants to meet my students over lunch so that he can fall in love with her. True love." Sid said and Rajeeve looked at me in a very serious node. Like he couldn't believe what Sid said. And then suddenly started laughing like he has heard the biggest joke of the millennium.
I felt bad. I felt embarrassed. I was serious and they were making fun of my emotions. I didn't say anything. And walked away from them. It hurt me. Was I really behaving like a despo? I just wanted love in my life. And I didn't want anything wrong. Then why were they making fun of me? Just because I have been a flirt few weeks ago? Just because I have had many dates with different girls in my past? Many questions were going through my mind. What was wrong if I liked that girl? What was wrong if I wanted to go out with her and spend time with her and understand her? I couldn't understand it. It all looked too complicated.
I looked down to distract my mind. There were buses and taxis and cars were running without caring about my situation. The crowed was doing their own work without bothering about me. Few people were talking but I was not the center of their conversation. I was almost no one. I was not such important to be the attraction. Why would they care then? Even my friends were not caring about me? The crowed was no one to me. May be I was not able to show up my emotions in a right manner. May be I had a bad image. May be I was behaving desperately. But they were my friends. And they couldn't understand me.
I just wanted love to fill my life. I just wanted to be loved. I just wanted to love some one beyond the limits. I just wanted to be loved beyond the limits. I didn't want to play with hearts. I just wanted love. Pure love.
(Next post, Next day)
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