"I Love you."
I said it in my third attempt. She was there in front of me after her school. It took me two more weeks to tell this fact to her after the day I decided to do it. When I saw her that day, coming out of her school, my heart started pounding. I felt like it will bump out via my mouth. My feet wanted to run away from that place. But somehow, I managed to hold the ground. And just when she reached me, looked into my eyes, I said it. Yes, I said it in one go. No fumbling and no stammering. My heart skipped a beat when I said it and after that, I felt lot relaxed.
"What...?" and this was the reaction in return. A casual what. She couldn't hear it for the first time may be. I had to say it again now. It was like climbing the everest twice in a day. I gathered all my energy again and said it again.
"I... I mean... you... you are beautiful... and... and... you are...cute... and I... and I love... I mean.... I like....love you... sorry... sorry..." But this time it was full of fumbling and stammering. I took a deep breathe after saying it again, as I really had climbed the Everest twice in one go.
"So...?" All my hard work seemed going waste after I heard this. Was she not getting what I said? A question arised in my so called big brain. No way. She understood every letter I said. She was not just a villager but she was the student of a very reputed school. And I bet she know it everything.
"So you...? I mean... Ugh... I mean do you love me too..." saying these words in such a circumstance where the chances were too much of breaking a heart was too tough. But I was a rough man that day.
" You know Rohan? You are crazy. And a fool too. I knew it was coming. But we are just 16. C'mon. And I don't love you. Even you don't love me. It's just an attraction. Got it. You are my good friend and don't spoil our friendship by getting these all in between. Please." She said as casually as she could. And for the first time in my life, I didn't like what she said. I felt broken. I felt to cry inside. I wished to sink right there in the earth. But I was still in front of her and she was wearing an expression like 'It was not expected'. I couldn't respond as I was not feeling the energy to respond.
" Please Rohan. Don't do this. You are a good boy and my best friend. Now be good and smile... please." She said again. Such a sweet tone her voice was wearing that I couldn't turn her down. I smiled and she smiled. And she went away after promising to meet me tomorrow.
After proposing her, I expected different from her. I thought she will blush a little, shy a little and nod. Or, I was expecting a hard slap on my right cheek as seen in many movies. The slap after which love increased. But nothing happened.
I walked back to home with heavy foot. And I broke few promises during next few days. No, I didn't got drunk again but I broke the promise of meeting. I didn't even got out of my room for next week. I was busy sleeping in my bed. Didn't feel like to go out. Remember, it was still 2004 and getting a girl was tough. And yes, bumping on another was more tougher after getting broke. As, every teenage love happened to be the truest lover then. The one women man. Though, it changed drastically within a couple of years.
Anyway, next week, almost after 8 days, she bumped into my house. But I didn't got out of my room even after hearing her. The sixteen year old me was playing an ego.
(Why was Anjali there at Rohan's house? Read next.)
I said it in my third attempt. She was there in front of me after her school. It took me two more weeks to tell this fact to her after the day I decided to do it. When I saw her that day, coming out of her school, my heart started pounding. I felt like it will bump out via my mouth. My feet wanted to run away from that place. But somehow, I managed to hold the ground. And just when she reached me, looked into my eyes, I said it. Yes, I said it in one go. No fumbling and no stammering. My heart skipped a beat when I said it and after that, I felt lot relaxed.
"What...?" and this was the reaction in return. A casual what. She couldn't hear it for the first time may be. I had to say it again now. It was like climbing the everest twice in a day. I gathered all my energy again and said it again.
"I... I mean... you... you are beautiful... and... and... you are...cute... and I... and I love... I mean.... I like....love you... sorry... sorry..." But this time it was full of fumbling and stammering. I took a deep breathe after saying it again, as I really had climbed the Everest twice in one go.
"So...?" All my hard work seemed going waste after I heard this. Was she not getting what I said? A question arised in my so called big brain. No way. She understood every letter I said. She was not just a villager but she was the student of a very reputed school. And I bet she know it everything.
"So you...? I mean... Ugh... I mean do you love me too..." saying these words in such a circumstance where the chances were too much of breaking a heart was too tough. But I was a rough man that day.
" You know Rohan? You are crazy. And a fool too. I knew it was coming. But we are just 16. C'mon. And I don't love you. Even you don't love me. It's just an attraction. Got it. You are my good friend and don't spoil our friendship by getting these all in between. Please." She said as casually as she could. And for the first time in my life, I didn't like what she said. I felt broken. I felt to cry inside. I wished to sink right there in the earth. But I was still in front of her and she was wearing an expression like 'It was not expected'. I couldn't respond as I was not feeling the energy to respond.
" Please Rohan. Don't do this. You are a good boy and my best friend. Now be good and smile... please." She said again. Such a sweet tone her voice was wearing that I couldn't turn her down. I smiled and she smiled. And she went away after promising to meet me tomorrow.
After proposing her, I expected different from her. I thought she will blush a little, shy a little and nod. Or, I was expecting a hard slap on my right cheek as seen in many movies. The slap after which love increased. But nothing happened.
I walked back to home with heavy foot. And I broke few promises during next few days. No, I didn't got drunk again but I broke the promise of meeting. I didn't even got out of my room for next week. I was busy sleeping in my bed. Didn't feel like to go out. Remember, it was still 2004 and getting a girl was tough. And yes, bumping on another was more tougher after getting broke. As, every teenage love happened to be the truest lover then. The one women man. Though, it changed drastically within a couple of years.
Anyway, next week, almost after 8 days, she bumped into my house. But I didn't got out of my room even after hearing her. The sixteen year old me was playing an ego.
(Why was Anjali there at Rohan's house? Read next.)
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